Cancer Answers

Posted by fxckfeelings on July 21, 2011

Talking to a partner about their cancer often leads people to become nervous and tentative. They may feel guilty for being the healthy party, or afraid to say the wrong thing and trigger painful feelings, and it’s that sort of distance that can lead to cancer of the relationship. If your partner has cancer, don’t freeze up; respect your usual shared goals, values, and reasons for making decisions, and treat him or her as your respected friend and not a cancer victim. Take the disease in stride, or the disease will take much, much more.
–Dr. Lastname

My boyfriend went through hell from chemotherapy, but I don’t know what to do with his depression and irritability. We’d been dating about a year and planning to get married when he found out he had a nasty kind of cancer and, since then, he’s been brave about chemo and going on with his life, which has meant working when he’s feeling OK, and our moving in together and being partners. Usually, we get along well, but lately he’s been depressed and telling me he knows he’s a burden, he can’t get much done, and he just wants to be alone. I want him to get help for his depression and stop the negative thinking but I don’t want to attack him or make him feel I don’t respect the fact that he has cancer.

One of the things you always hear from people in pain is that you, the lucky one, “just don’t understand.” It’s the rallying cry of the suffering, whether they’re coping with cancer, or just being between the ages of 10 and 18.

What sick people often fail to realize, at least at first, is that people who aren’t in their position understand things that they can’t; after all, you might have the good luck not know what it’s like to have cancer, but you know what your boyfriend’s like when he’s not depressed, and you know this isn’t it.

If you want to get through to him, put aside your guilt about his bad luck and your fear about hurting him when he’s down. You believe his negative thinking is doing more damage right now than his cancer, and that he needs a better perspective. You’re right, so guilt-be-gone.

Then, remind him about the way he and you usually think of your life together. He’s had the worst kind of bad luck, but you admire the way he’s managed it and continued with his life and you’re happy to share his fight.

After all, you’re not with him because you pity him for having cancer, but because you love his courage and find it gives you strength, and because you hope for the best and are happy to share as much time as possible.

Maybe his cancer, chemo or pain tells him he’s a useless burden, but you don’t accept that and you know he wouldn’t if he were in his right mind, because those things are mean and disrespectful. What he should be saying is that he’s fighting a good fight, respects what he’s doing, and is proud of the way the two of you have created love and closeness in the midst of chaos.

Maybe he needs therapy or medication to put a lid on the negative thinking, but in any case, reminding him about what he values and challenging him to protect his self-respect is good therapy in itself, and you can do it. You don’t need to fully understand his experience with illness in order to help him through.

STATEMENT:
“I can’t rescue my boyfriend from attacks of hopelessness about his cancer, but we’re together because we share the belief that life is worth the pain he’s gone through and, so far, nothing has changed my mind. Sickness has made him forget his beliefs and accomplishments, so it’s my job to stand up for them until he’s ready to reclaim them.”

I don’t know how to tell my wife that we can’t afford for her to continue her present business because she’s losing too much money. She used to be good at it, but cancer and chemo had a bad effect on her brain 2 years ago, and now she gets too distracted and drops the ball. I admire her courage, and I owe her for supporting the family all these years while I raised the kids and taught painting. Now I’m making more money and have taken over the finances, but it’s not enough. I’ve tried to help her keep her business organized, but it just doesn’t work. I feel angry and guilty. I can’t get her to see that she needs to find a new job that doesn’t require her old attention span and can make us some money.

It’s hard to confront your wife about about a new, cancer-related, permanent disability without feeling you’re destroying her hope and confidence and adding to her pain. On the other hand, if she doesn’t accept her disability, you’re all sunk and she’ll never have a chance to make the best of what she has.

Remember, you’re not inflicting her pain—the real cause is life and cancer—and the only reason you think she needs to face her disability is that the alternative is worse. That’s your decision as her partner and someone who’s stepped up to assume a greater share of responsibility for the family’s welfare and survival.

After all, you’ve risen to the occasion. You’re not preparing to confront her because you’re angry about the way cancer has robbed you of her strength and old personality (although you may certainly have such a feeling). If you confront her, it’s because you’ve done your homework, weighed the alternatives, and decided it’s necessary.

Begin by accepting her disability yourself; don’t see it as a treatment failure, or as a problem the two of you have failed to solve, just as a wound imposed by the sucky side of life. Respect the way she’s tried hard to return to a normal life, and respect the way you’ve picked up the load, because you both did the right thing. You needed to know the limits of her abilities, and now you do, but you just got a bad result.

Once you accept her disability without shame, you’re prepared to put it in a positive context. Tell her, without guilt, how much you respect her efforts, and that, though most of her mental equipment is functioning beautifully, there’s something wrong with her attention span that won’t let her make money at her old job.

Don’t sound as if your mind isn’t made up or as if you’re waiting for her to agree; her ability to perceive a business plan realistically may be included in the brain damage, or she may not be emotionally ready to accept it. In either case, sound like someone who has made up his mind.

In your opinion, she shouldn’t continue her old job and, if it’s up to you, you won’t support her doing it. You will, on the other hand, support her in finding something new to fit her current limitations.

STATEMENT:
“I miss my wife’s old strengths, and so does she, (or she would if she was in her right mind), but our idea of partnership was that one of us would take over if the other was injured, and that’s what I’m doing. I will raise painful topics if I think it’s necessary and respect myself for doing so.”