Knee-Jerk Hurt

Posted by fxckfeelings on July 12, 2010

Not everyone is good at showing those they love how much they love them. In fact, some people are so disorganized they can’t help but blow off the ones they love, which is something, surprise, those loved ones hate and tend to take personally. You can try rewarding or punishing your beloved flake in order to set them straight, but you’d be acting in vain. For the loved-yet-jilted, it’s important to remember that the love is still there, even if the organization isn’t.
–Dr. Lastname

My son’s a good kid, very smart, and he does pretty well in school, although they’ve diagnosed him as having attention deficit disorder. Anyway, he’s so busy I rarely get to see him, so I thought we should spend more time together, and I made a deal that I’d give him some extra money for video games if he’d put aside some time for the two of us, and he agreed very willingly, but then he kept on forgetting about our scheduled times and blowing me off. Now, I feel I can’t give him the money without giving him the message that it’s OK to be irresponsible and disrespectful. Frankly, I’m hurt. My goal is to get him to be a good kid.

People often assume that hurtful actions by others are a personal affront. In fact, often when people get shat on, it’s totally thoughtless—they’ve been blown off because everything gets blown off, and nobody’s special. Feel better?

In terms of ending that behavior, however, you’ve got a bad plan; by putting a personal, moral spin on accidental fuckups, you’re making it harder, not easier, to make them better.

Yes, telling the kid you’re offended and he’s let you down will catch his attention and make him think twice before blowing you off again. The reason you’re writing, however, is that thinking twice wasn’t enough (although he’s probably too ADD and “in the moment” to do much thinking at all).

Now that you’ve given your warning in vain, you’re more hurt and reacting to his behavior as an insult and/or deliberate stubbornness. In turn, your efforts to get together are pushing you apart.

I’m not sure why you had to offer him a reward to spend time together—I should think that finding something pleasant to do together would be reward enough—but let’s go with what we’ve got.

Your goal now is to help him get that reward—and the good feeling that goes with keeping his commitments and having a good time with you—in spite of the distractive influences of his social life and ADD.

Remember, it’s your job to help him manage his ADD and not got caught up in reacting to it, and ADD often prompts a mixed reaction from friends and family. It often gives people attractive spontaneity and “in the moment” energy while blocking them from following-through, so they accumulate a circle of disappointed ex-friends about whom they feel guilty, which makes them more avoidant, worsens the problem, and widens the circle.

Don’t try to reform him from being a selfish kid who doesn’t care about his dad, because that’s not the kid you’ve got. Swallow your hurt and abandon the need to seek amends.

He’s probably a good kid who loves his dad but isn’t good at managing his schedule, just like you’re a good dad who loves his kid but isn’t good at not taking his ADD personally.

STATEMENT:
“It’s good that you’re busy, but now we’ve got to work harder to make sure we get time together. I’ll help you plan ahead, we’ll set up a system of reminders, and I’ll devise incentives for remembering. Sooner or later, my person will talk to your person and we’ll figure out a way to make it happen.”

I don’t hate my sister, but we have this odd relationship where we have a fight about once a year (my kids tease me about it). We live pretty close to each other, but we’re both busy and maybe a little disorganized, so we don’t call each other that much; but whenever I give her a call, she says she wants to get together and then does nothing, so I get pissed off and stop calling, until she feels bent out of shape by the fact I haven’t called, and then a holiday rolls around and that gives her the excuse to let me have it. My goal is for us to have a better relationship.

You can’t have a better relationship with your sister if you keep on doing things the natural way and rely on her to be active and organized in a way she never is or was.

The only way to have that relationship is to have another sister, and your parents are probably a little too old for that.

Also, like the father above, you can’t have a better relationship if you’re going to take her unresponsiveness personally and feel hurt by it. You both are who you are, and yearly blow-ups won’t change anything but your kids’ annual jokes.

Yes, it’s normal to feel hurt when someone doesn’t follow through on a plan to get together; but you’ve known her a long time and have good reason to think that she cares (especially if you have an annual make-up).

As such, your hurt feelings are a reflex that will make things worse if you let yourself express them, either actively or passively (if you stop calling/hang up on her). The ADD father would reward his son fruitlessly, and you’re punishing your sister in the same manner. Ultimately, you both end up punished, and the only result is a new round of punch-lines from your kids.

Assume she’s disorganized and that you need to do more than hint if you want to get together. It’s annoying that you have to do more of the work, but it’s better than the alternative (less of the work, none of your sister).

If you put in the extra effort and it doesn’t work, the knowledge that you’ve done your best can help you avoid a fight in case she accuses you once more. Still, you need to edit out your hurt and retribution.

An occasional-albeit-peaceful relationship is better than no relationship, and family is important, even when they’re unwillingly ignoring or willingly mocking you.

STATEMENT:
Here’s a statement to keep your efforts positive and safely protected from the vicious circle of hurt. “I value our relationship and wish we saw more of one another. I’ve tried to arrange get-togethers, but they don’t happen easily because your life is busy and it’s hard to juggle priorities. Whatever the problem, I know you love me and we’ll get together whenever it’s possible, and no one is at fault. Maybe it will get easier when we get older.”